Tag Archive | health

Mid-October 2017

Look at that! 2x already in one month! Told ya I was hoping to write more often.

I’m writing to vent on myself. I received some blood test results this morning and I’m upset. It seems like the harder I try to get things right, the worse they get. My A1C was the highest its been in over 7 years. My triglycerides have increased again and my HDL has dropped. I meet with the doctor next week, and I already know what she’ll say. That I need to workout more and eat less junk. After ‘injuring’ my ankle last month, I haven’t been able to workout as much. Plus, with all the stress at work, it’s been really hard to have the energy to workout before the ‘injury.’ My eating hasn’t been the greatest, but I eat my emotions and again, with the stress of work and studying, I haven’t made the best choices.

So, why do I say the harder I try the worse things get? I really do feel like I’ve been trying! It’s just when I look back over the past few months, I don’t see the fruit of that trying.

Maybe these numbers will be the kick in the pants that I need???? Nothing else has seemed to work. 😦


At least the stress at work is letting up and I’m almost finished with this one class.

Something clicked in my motivation 7  years ago and I lost a lot of weight and my numbers were looking good. I need to have that ‘click’ again somehow.

I know, pray about it, right? Sometimes that seems so cliché. I’ve asked God for years to help me get healthy. I know it’s a matter of my will depending on His strength. I know that in my head and not so much in my heart, I guess.

Any tips? 


Mid-July 2017

Hi y’all! Hope you are all enjoying your summer. So far, my MS symptoms haven’t been a problem, even though it’s been pretty hot here in STL. I’ve even gone on walks outside and not had problems! Praise the Lord!

I have been sleeping a lot on weekends though. Not sure if it’s MS fatigue or if I’m just not sleeping well during the week and am trying to catch up. I’m trying to wear my CPAP every night, which really helps. No, I haven’t been wearing it faithfully for a while, but I’m changing that! Slept a lot this weekend, mostly due to (I think) allergies, which lead to sinus pain, which leads to toothaches. Ibuprofen is my friend!

Earned an A in my last class! Now my GPA is 3.22 🙂 Taking 2 classes right now, a bit overwhelming. But I’ll make it. One class I’m retaking because I earned a D in it the first time. Some of the work I’ve already done, so that helps, but they changed a lot of the format.  Which actually makes it a little easier this time around.

Saw my PCP and GYNO recently. All pretty good, just focusing on losing weight, as usual. Which has been happening, just slowly. I’ve lost inches, but the scale isn’t moving too much. But some of my clothes are getting too big, so that’s a good thing! Still working out with the trainer and loving it! Anyway, we’re also watching my BP, it might be getting too low. Could that be causing some of the sleepiness? Maybe, I guess. My PCP also mentioned getting an ablation, which I’m not sure I’m quite ready for. I don’t plan on having kids, but that seems a little invasive. We’ll see, if things in that area don’t improve, it might be an option, I’ll have to talk with my GYNO. Nothing too scary, but probably a little TMI for here already!!

So, dad’s OK. Mom’s OK. Hard to watch your parents age though. Mom had a little scare the other day, but she’s good. Dad’s at home at least.

Work’s OK. Some days are super busy and drain my brain power. Still love my job, just a lot going on – a lot of hiring, which that’s my main area.

Ever mess up something in your life and think you’ll never get back to where you were? I know, kinda vague, bear with me. I know God is like a GPS, He has a destination set for us, and even if we take a wrong turn, He can still get us there. I’ve probably shared that before, not an original thought, but a comforting one. I just think I went down a path that I shouldn’t have and feel like I lost a lot of ground. Ground in my friendships, leadership, walk with God, reputation, etc. I’m feeling condemned, which isn’t from God and I know that. I just, I don’t know, wish things were different. I know He’s forgiven me because I’ve repented and all, but there’s still the regret and remorse. Guess maybe I’m mourning the mistakes I’ve made?

But that’s all in the past and I need to look forward. He has amazing things in store for me, and I want to follow hard after Him. Whatever and wherever that may entail. I’m excited for my future and His plans for me. I know that last paragraph might sound otherwise, I was just lamenting. Things are getting back on track and I’ll be OK.

Thanks for sticking with me through my (sometimes mis-)adventures!

Beginning of May 2016 #changes

Hi everyone!

So I definitely cannot say that my stress level is much lower (see last post for details).

First off, the place that I have worked at for 15 1/2 years is closing its doors 😦 The economy got the better of us. So I’m still there for a month or two to help selling/ship/inventory everything, but after that I got nothing so far. They are giving us severance packages that will keep me afloat for a while though.

Can’t say I’m all that surprised. Well, yeah I can. We expected a lay-off and probably a big one at that, but not a closure. Part of me is still in shock and numb, part is angry, and believe it or not, part of me is excited. I’m going to miss the place/company/friends from the plant, but I totally believe God has something amazing in store for me (and everyone else for that matter). It’ll be OK. Just have to take it one step at a time.

For now I’m not sure what I want to do or where God’s leading me. Career change? Maybe. Guess time will tell. The state of Missouri will pay for me to go back to school to learn a new trade if I want. Could be interesting, maybe something I could use on the mission field??

Besides that, getting ready to end the Spring semester of 2016 at Liberty. Then starting Summer right away. I’m looking at graduating at the end of 2017 or beginning of 2018.

I’ve been at risk for diabetes for years, and through gaining 30 pounds in a year, I recently crossed over the line to an official diagnoses. 😦 I desperately have to lose weight now. I don’t want to be like this anymore! My cholesterol numbers are really bad too, so the doctor is giving me 3 months to see what I can do with diet and exercise, then we’ll re-test. So I plan to religiously log my calories and walk at least 4 times a week for 30 minutes each. I might even look into joining a gym, like one of the $10/month ones, just so I can walk on a treadmill once the temps get too hot.

I’m leaving for Japan in 15 days! Yep, still going. Tickets and reservations were made well in advance of the closure announcement, so I’m trusting God that He had it all planned out. Which He did, of course! Still need a little more as far as fund-raising goes, so ask if you’re interested in supporting me.  Also room on my prayer team if you’re interested in that!

Well, lunch break is about over. I’ll talk to you all again soon!

Late March 2016 #stress

I am so stressed out right now. Like I know I’d feel better if I could just cry, but I’m dry. In times like this, I should feel more drawn to seek out God. But I’m not. I feel it’s just an obligation to read my bible and pray, but there’s no heart in it.

I’m stressed about my cat, who might have cancer. He had major surgery a couple of days ago and he’s miserable now. And it cost a lot of money. Did I make a mistake in putting him through this?

I’m stressed about the mission trip to Japan. I had money in my savings for it, but spent a lot of it on my kitty. I’m still holding out hope for more donations, but it’s hard to believe it’ll come in.

I’m stressed about the Perspectives class. I’m totally enjoying what we’re learning, but there’s homework that I need to do for it and a project I haven’t even started on.

I’m stressed about my friends that are fighting different diseases. How much it’s costing them and the pain they are in.

I’m stressed about school. I’m supposed to be going, right? I want to be a Christian counselor, don’t I? But am I just spending too much time, energy, and money on the degree?

I’m stressed about my dad. Will his health continue to get worse? What about mine for that matter?

I’m stressed about work. Our market is down and we don’t have a lot of material to run. How long can we go on like this?

I’m stressed about the alarm system at my old house. The company won’t let me out of my contract even though I can’t move the system to my apartment. So I have to continue to pay them until June of 2018.

I’m stressed about the 5k I signed up for in a couple of weeks. I haven’t been able to train very much.

I’m stressed because I never feel like I’m doing things well enough. Could I be doing more in ‘xyz’ area(s) of my life? Should I be doing less?

But… the Lord is still in charge and is working everything out. He has plans for me. Good plans.

Just wish I could hear His voice better. I wish I had a hunger for the Word and not just overwhelming feeling of just having to read it because it’s that ‘right’ thing to do.

Not trying to throw a pity party here, sorry. Just helps if I talk about it, ya know?

Mid August 2015

So much has been going on in the past month. Sorry I haven’t written in a while, just been overwhelmed.

Mike and I just went through a fight. Not a yelling type fight, but a strong disagreement that almost broke us up. See, I feel called to ministry leadership, and possibly to be ordained someday (currently licensed as a minister). His denomination defines ordination as for being a pastor of a church and only for men, my denomination says for ministers – not necessarily head pastors – and women are included. LONG story short, we’ve come to an understanding of the two differences and he’s in favor of me being ordained, just not being the head pastor of a church. Which isn’t something I really aspire to anyway. This almost broke us up because I didn’t feel like he could support and encourage me in what I believe God is calling me to, and if it came down to a decision between Mike and God, God was going to win. Looks like I get both 🙂

We spent last Saturday in St James, MO at the Vacuum Cleaner Museum (remember, he collects them). He had the time of his life, he was like a kid in a candy store. He only came away with one vacuum, amazingly, but it’s a really nice one. I spent some time at the winery while he did some stuff with the curator, Tom. We were still there from 10a until 4p. Yes, I am a girlfriend with a lot of patience, but it was for his birthday and i know he’ll never forget that trip.

My dad went into the hospital last Friday. Not to go into much detail, but his health had been deteriorating for a few months and got really bad. Mom called for the ambulance. He ended up being severely dehydrated, malnourished, anemic, and having a large bleed ulcer. He’s still in the hospital and they’re trying to figure out what else could possibly be wrong to set off the whole process. So far he’s doing much better 🙂

Getting towards the end of another semester. One more class closer to graduation!

Work’s been kind of slow. Our market is down and has been for some time. It should come up soon, just wish it’d hurry up and fix itself so we can get some material in here to run.

No progress on the short sale of my house just yet. Slowly packing up stuff I know I won’t need right away. Just in a place of not knowing is getting stressful. What do I pack, how long will this take, etc., etc? I know, trust God and His timing for it all.

Weight loss… how about gain? 😦 not doing too well in this area right now. It’s not about how I look, I just want to get healthy, but I’ve been stress eating.

OK, blah! Good news: getting an A in Theology 2 so far, dad’s health is getting better and (just found out) he gets to come home this evening, a lot of people care about my family and have been showing their love to us, and Mike and I are stronger in our relationship.

There, that’s a better way to end this post 🙂

mid-August 2013

Man, time seems to be flying by these days, doesn’t it??

So, I’m starting a running program this week!  I’m doing a Halloween 5k on Oct 13th, a Gobble Wobble 5k on Nov 21st, and Hot Chocolate 5k on Dec 15th.  Gotta get in shape! I’m going to start the C25k program (again).  Pray for me 😉

Did you catch that the Halloween one is the day before I leave for Africa?  Yes, I’m a little crazy.  Apparently I strive under pressure 😉

The pastoral licensing interview/exam went well.  There was an assignment I was supposed to do before that I completely forgot about though.  They were gracious and let me do it the next day, so we’re all good.  The paperwork is at the District office and has to be approved by the Supervisor and the board, then I’ll have my license!  10 months of work and studying finally paying off 🙂

Speaking of studying, I’m going through a book on being a woman of excellence.  I’m tired of mediocrity and want to excel in all I do.  Whether it be blogging, or running, or ministering, I want to glorify God in all of it and do my very best.  Not easy and I don’t want to get legalistic about anything, just want to not settle for good enough!  KWIM?

Pep talk

It’s so hard to start over.  I keep thinking about how far I’ve fallen with the weight loss/fitness.  I’m slowly losing again, but still.  After losing so much and gaining it back plus some just sucks.  Plus my fitness level was getting really good, now it sucks too.

OK, enough of the pity party!  I know where I can be, I know it’s possible to surpass that!  I can do this, but only with God’s help and with the encouragement of friends and family.

I’m not trying to lose out of vanity.  Yes, I’d like to be thinner, but I want to be able to walk for more than 10 minutes without feeling worn out.  I want to get back to where I was when I completed that 10k (6.2 miles) in 2 hours.  Pfft, I want to be better than that.  Why?  Because it means that the MS and depression aren’t winning this battle!!!

I’ll admit, I’ve let them have a few rounds.  It’s time for the fitness and wellness side to come back fighting!  It won’t be easy, nothing really worth it ever is, but it will be so worth the pain and sweat.

One day at a time, right?

What are you struggling with?  Can I encourage you in any way?